A cup of tea and crossed legs under the table, you had a long black and I liked that // the sun was setting sooner than usual so we walked across the road to the park to catch the last minutes of light/warmth, the grass itched my thighs through my stockings, running my hands up and down them now and then // you want too, I should just let you but all the same things stop me, always feeling underwhelmed, always the same // no sun now, there is a dog swimming in the pond and we stare until our gaze is broken by nothing in particular // we talk about wednesday, the next time we see each other I won’t be so erratic but green blue red shadows all over you, tell me I will be // and you will be